pica_scribit: Pica Pica (Default)
Title: Discards
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Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling
Rating: Mature
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, Remus Lupin & Lily Evans Potter, Sirius Black & James Potter, James Potter/Lily Evans Potter (side pairing)
Characters: Sirius Black, Remus Lupin, James Potter, Lily Evans, Peter Pettigrew, Severus Snape
Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Non-Magical, Alternate Universe - Modern Setting, Romance, Angst, Getting Together, Falling In Love, Libraries, College, Trans Male Character, Gay Male Character, Latino Character, Japanese-American Character, Black Character(s), Jewish Character, POV Trans Character, Bad Parenting, Parental Rejection, Homelessness, HIV/AIDS, Drug Use, Sex Work, Seattle, Friendship, Fluff and Angst, It's not a downer I swear!, Latino!Remus, Japanese-American!Sirius, Trans!Sirius, Black!James, Jewish!Lily, Texting, bisexual!Lily, Bisexual!Sirius, Gay!Remus, Asshole!Snape, Found Family, Families of Choice, LGBTQ Themes, LGBTQ Character of Color, LGBTQ Jewish Character(s), Anxiety Disorder, Panic Attacks, Embedded Images, Poverty, Secrets, Slow Burn, Cuddling & Snuggling, Kissing
Series: Part 1 of Discards Verse
Summary: When 21-year-old assistant librarian Sirius spots a cute hipster college student at the Seattle Public Library, he just needs to figure out a subtle way of determining whether he's into guys. But Remus's life is more complicated than Sirius knows.


James gave him an incredulous look as he turned the car onto Yesler Way. "You're telling me that out of the thousands of people who visit the Seattle Central Library every week - smart people, who like to read for fun - there's not a single one who seems interesting?"

"Even if there was someone I thought was interesting," said Sirius, "it's not like I could hit on him at work. There are rules about that, you know."

"'Him'?" James raised his eyebrows. "Is this a theoretical 'him', or an actual flesh-and-blood 'him' we're talking about?"

Sirius scowled. "It's no one. Just a guy I've seen around a couple of times."

"What's he like, this mystery man of yours?" James grinned.

Sirius shrugged again. "Kind of a hipster maybe. Skinny jeans, flannel shirt, knit cap. You know the type. Latino, I think. But I haven't talked to him or anything."

"Why not?" asked James. "Afraid your charm and sheer animal magnetism might make him swoon on the spot?"

Sirius rolled his eyes again. "What am I supposed to say to a guy who's just sitting there, reading? 'Need someone to turn the page for you?' Anyway, he's probably straight. And even if he isn't, he probably wouldn't be into someone like me."

James's teasing smile faded. "Hey, don't talk like that. You're a great guy. Why wouldn't he be into you?"

Sirius gazed moodily out the windshield at the slowly-moving lanes of traffic. "You know."

pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
Title: TransLate
Author: [personal profile] pica_scribit (complete fic archive)
Word Count: ~5000
Genre: AU, romance, drama, angst, hurt/comfort
Rating: M
Warnings: Deals frankly with a trans male character experiencing an unplanned pregnancy and abortion.
Characters: Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, Poppy Pomfrey
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Summary: The Easter before their NEWTs, Remus and Sirius receive some shocking news.
Disclaimer: Harry Potter characters and the Wizarding world are the sole property of J. K. Rowling. I own nothing except my own ideas, and make no profit. No copyright infringement is intended.
Note: This is a sequel to my first trans!Remus story, TransFigured.

Remus gave a hollow, humourless chuckle.

"Is something funny?" his boyfriend asked irritably.

"A bit," said Remus. "Pomfrey thinks I'm pregnant."

Sirius stilled. "That's not funny."

"No, I suppose it's not."

"Are you?"

Remus looked down at his feet, dangling over the lake. "Yeah."
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
I've now edited this fic, adding ~900 words to the smutty part, and recorded a podfic of the new version.

Title: Just Sex
Word Count: 6100
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Sirius Black/Remus Lupin, mentioned James Potter/Lily Evans Potter
Characters: Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter
Additional Tags: Friendship, Romance, Getting Together, Shameless Smut, First War with Voldemort, top!Remus, Bottom!Sirius, One Night Stands, Friends to Lovers, Anal Sex, Secretly In Love With Each Other For Years, Coming Out, Podfic, Podfic Available, Podfic Length: 30-45 Minutes, Canon Compliant, Explicit Consent


Remus looked away. The truth was that he did want to bed Sirius. The knowledge that Sirius was willing and eager to have him made his palms sweat and his heart race. That did not make it a good idea. "I don't want to be one of your conquests, Padfoot. And I don't want to lose you as a friend."

Sirius's voice softened. "You wouldn't, Moony. That would never happen."

"You don't know that."

Sirius touched his arm, forcing Remus to meet his eyes. "You've been one of my best mates for eight years, Moony," he said gently. "We've been through so much together. We care about each other. Nothing's going to wreck that. It's just sex. It doesn't have to change anything."

Just sex. It was easy for Sirius to say that. But it would never be "just sex" for Remus. Not with Sirius.
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - MWPP - Conspiracy)
I finished chapters for all the Marauders' parents last year, but now I've gone back and added Lily and Snape's families as well, and recorded a podfic. This series of shorts is compliant with A Conspiracy of Cartographers, and acts as a sort of prequel.

Title: A History of Cartographers
Words: 7127
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Major Character Death (Original Character)
Relationships: Remus Lupin’s Parents, Orion Black/Walburga Black, James Potter’s Parents - Relationship, Lily Evans’ Parents, Peter Pettigrew’s Parents, Eileen Prince/Tobias Snape
Characters: Walburga Black, Orion Black, Eileen Prince, Tobias Snape, Original Female Character(s), Original Male Character(s), Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter, Lily Evans Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Severus Snape, Regulus Black, Petunia Evans Dursley, Alphard Black
Additional Tags: Canon Compliant, Foreshadowing, Family, Marriage, Pregnancy, Childbirth, Babies, Children, Parenthood, Werewolves, Black Character(s), POC James Potter, Trans Male Character, Pureblood Culture, Arranged Marriage, Poverty, Prostitution, Teen Pregnancy, Domestic Violence, Abusive Relationships, Abusive Parents, Implied/Referenced Suicide, Strangulation, Parent Death, Terminal Illnesses, Internalized Misogyny, Homophobia, Transphobia, Podfic, Podfic Available, Podfic Length: 30-45 Minutes
Summary: 1958-66: Remus, Sirius, James, Lily, Peter, Severus. Six children from six very different families. Twelve parents who only exist between the lines of canon, but who were instrumental in shaping the characters we love, and the story as we know it.

Excerpt from "Rose Evans":

Rose was not her real name. She had left that behind with everything else when she ran away from the base and her father's cruelty, her mother's indifference. She learned to copy the accents of the other children, bought a train ticket to London, and disappeared. For a while, she lived on the streets, trading her body for the money men gave her, because it meant surviving for another day.

When the truant officers took her, she refused to tell them who she was or where she came from. They sent her to Wool's Home for Children. That was where she met Harry Evans. His parents were dead. She told him hers were, too. He told her that her green eyes were pretty. She said she liked his red hair.
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - MWPP - Conspiracy)
My plan was to have this up much earlier in the weekend. Sorry. But here it is! So much dialogue, most of it written during bouts of exhaustion. Hope it's coherent.

"They're going to figure it out," insisted Remus. "They're too clever not to."

"They won't," Sirius soothed. "It'll be fine."

"They will." Remus was in no mood for baseless assurances.

"They might," said Peter.

"Shut it, Pete," snapped Sirius. "You're not helping."

Chapter 18: Dunheath
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
Title: Trans*Figured
Author: [personal profile] pica_scribit (complete fic archive)
Word Count: ~25,000
Genre: AU, romance, drama, angst, hurt/comfort
Rating: M
Warnings: Trans* character written by cis author, references to Dark magic, bullying, attempted suicide, transphobia, sexual activity between teenagers. Not a "born this way" trans* story; there's a magical twist for the magical world.
Characters: Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Severus Snape, Albus Dumbledore, Poppy Pomfrey, Mr & Mrs Lupin (OCs)
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Summary: Remus has a secret: he's not a werewolf.
Disclaimer: Harry Potter characters and the Wizarding world are the sole property of J. K. Rowling. I own nothing except my own ideas, and make no profit. No copyright infringement is intended.
Note: I have tried to create a sensitive portrayal of a transgender character. I believe we need more trans* visibility in fanfiction. Obviously Remus's experiences are uniquely his own, and there is no single right way to be trans* or to feel about being trans*. It's possible I've made a mess of this, regardless of my intentions. If so, then I apologise and humbly ask for wise advice and/or resources to help me improve any problematic aspects of this story.

Sirius was quiet for a moment. Then he said, "We thought you might be a werewolf."

"What?" Remus almost laughed at the absurdity.

"Last year. James and I thought -- but the dates didn't quite match up. With the full moons, I mean."

"Well, I'm not."

"I know. All I meant was, we thought you might be, and we still wanted to be friends. Whatever you're not telling us -- how much worse could it be?"
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
Here, have some sexyfuntimes with the pups. Isn't it nice when they are happy?

Sirius was warm and half asleep when he greeted Remus with a drowsy, open-mouthed kiss, but he began to wake up as Remus tugged at his teeshirt. By the time his pants slipped over his hips, he was hard.

"This is a nice dream," he sighed into Remus's ear.

"Want me to make it nicer?"

"Mmmm. Yes, please."

Trans*Figured, Chapter 9
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
This might be the most difficult, terrifying story I have ever written. And that's good (I hope). I want to challenge myself. I want to tackle subject matter that I don't see getting much attention in the fandom. I want to be an advocate for those who have trouble getting their voices heard and their stories told. I want my readers to see themselves reflected in my stories. But this only works and it only helps if I do it right, and that's where the "terrifying" part comes into it.

I'm not trans*, so writing a POV transgender character is probably problematic from the start. There are some tropes surrounding this that I am aware of, and traps that I've made an effort not to fall into. First and foremost, I am trying to avoid fetishising Remus's body and sexuality. I hope I have managed this, in spite of this story being a romance with sexual content. I want to show him having a happy, healthy sex life with a boyfriend who is always there to support him and give him validation when he's feeling insecure about his body.

I've also tried to avoid a dynamic of a cisgender person teaching a trans* person how to enjoy sex and be comfortable with their body. I know that can start to look like a cis person being pushy and talking a trans* person into doing things before they are ready. I've done my best to make Sirius an eager and encouraging lover, while still making sure that Remus has tons of agency, and often makes the first move.

I have written R/S a hundred times before, and a few R/S AUs. I usually hop back and forth between their POVs, or lean heavily in Sirius's direction. For this story, I wanted to make sure I centred Remus's POV, feelings and experiences. I've made a concerted effort here to write this story fully from his POV, because in this case, Sirius's experiences, while possibly interesting, are not the point and do not matter anywhere near as much.

Most of all, I wanted to write a story that models consent, models sexual agency, models ways to be supportive and validating of the people we love. In this case, it was more important to me than writing a "realistic" or "believable" story. I want to show people, especially young people, how to be better at having healthy relationships, and taking care of one another, rather than reflecting the painful and problematic world of what teenage relationships are often like. I hope I have accomplished this.

If there are problematic elements still present in this story, however small, please do not hesitate to let me know. You can email me or message me privately. As with all my stories, I want this one to be the best it can possibly be. Thank you so much to everyone who has made suggestions and posted encouraging feedback so far. Two more chapters to go! And if I'm feeling brave, there will be a sequel, which will tackle some even more difficult subject matter. *nerves*
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
I've split Chapter 2 in half, since it was so much longer than all the others, which has bumped up the number of all subsequent chapters. Sorry for any confusion this may cause. Here, have some sexy fun times.

"Remus --"

"Hmmm?" said Remus again, eyeing one of Sirius's nipples and wondering what would happen if he applied his tongue to it.

"Y-you don't have to do this every time."

"I want to. I like touching you. Don't you like it?" His tongue flicked out, tasting pink.

Sirius made a sound. "Doesn't seem fair," he mumbled, "me getting off all the time."

"Mmmm," Remus rubbed his lips against the tiny nub. "Let me worry about 'fair'."

Trans*Figured, Chapter 8
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
Sometimes I stay up all night just to finish a chapter. I am the Queen of Grown-Up Life Choices. I know I am probably making Sirius too nice and too perfect in this, but I don't really care. His purpose is to make sure Remus's existence and desires are validated all over the damn place.


"So sorry if me snogging my boyfriend makes you uncomfortable, Potter," said Sirius, not sounding sorry at all. "You never had any problem snogging Hathersage in front of us."

"That's different," said James.

"Is it, though?" asked Peter.

James looked thoughtful for a moment. "No. No, Pete's right; it's not. It's not fair that I can snog a girl or hold hands with her where people can see us, and no one makes a fuss, but you have to hide and keep things secret."

Trans*Figured, Chapter 6

pica_scribit: Pica Pica (Default)
The power was out today in my neighbourhood. Look what happens when there's no internet to distract me! Who would have thought?

"I'm OK," said Sirius. "Are you?"

"Yeah, fine." Remus began to walk in the direction of the stairway to Gryffindor tower.

"You look like death," Sirius said, following him.

"Thanks. I'm tired, Sirius. What do you want?"

Trans*Figured, Chapter 5

(I'm still looking for someone knowledgeable in trans* issues to advise me on a non-problematic way of dealing with Snape in this story. Volunteers?)
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
I've been feeling the itch to work on my trans* Remus story a lot lately. I wrote pretty much the whole chapter in the last six hours. Hope it's good!

Remus and Snape's heads both jerked up to see Sirius lounging against the wall between them and the classroom.

Snape's mouth twisted into a sneer. "I wasn't hurting your girlfriend, Black. There's no law against me talking to her."

"There is now." Sirius pushed away from the wall, his wand clenched in his fist. "I don't ever want to hear you speak to Remus again. I'm fairly certain Dumbledore told you not to bother him."

"Just because I'm keeping that stupid secret doesn't mean I can't have a little fun." Snape's hand twitched towards his wand pocket.

Chapter 4

ETA: I need some help with resolving Snape. Can someone knowledgeable in trans* issues please contact me? I would be very grateful for any help you can provide.
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - MWPP - Conspiracy)
It's done!

Marcellus Lupin - April 1966

"I never asked for any of it to be real." Her voice was quiet. Toneless. "Wizards. Magic. Werewolves. I just wanted a normal life. To marry someone I loved. To have healthy children. To watch them grow. That was magic enough for me."

Holy Crap!

Oct. 26th, 2013 01:57 pm
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
Dear picascribit,

I am writing to inform you that you've been nominated for the following
category for the Fall-Winter 2013 Round of The HP Fanfic Fan Poll Awards
(hpfanficfanpoll . livejournal . com):

CATEGORY: BEST A/U for "Highland Fling"

Rules, Timelines, and How to Nominate a Fic

To Make Nominations/Ask Questions: hpfanficfanpollmod@gmail.com
Nomination period: October 1st - October 28th, 2013
Voting period: November 1st - December 31st, 2013
Winners announced: by January 10th, 2014

ETA: I just realised my story is probably not eligible for consideration, since it was finished before the allowable time period. :( Ah, well. Still cool to be nominated.

pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - MWPP - Conspiracy)
Summary: Excuse me while I pour a bucket of subtext on a couple of unsuspecting 12-year-olds.

"D'you want to go outside, Moony?" Sirius asked.

Remus shook his head. He looked better than he had in Potions, but he still seemed exhausted and unwell. "I'm going to meditate for a bit," he said, voice barely above a whisper. "You can go. I'll be fine."

"It's too cold out for me," Sirius told James. "You go ahead; I'll see Moony back to the room."

~ Chapter 16 ~
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - MWPP - Conspiracy)
Summary: The November moon and Sirius's newly tainted blood combine to exacerbate his quarrel with James.

He felt restless, like he wanted to run and run and never stop. Taking the great staircase two steps at a time, Sirius almost flew to the third floor landing. He didn't want to go back to Gryffindor tower yet; all the rooms there were too small. Instead, he sprinted down an empty corridor, taking turns without paying any attention to where he was going. This part of the castle was cold and dark and silent, with only the faint glow of silver moonlight through the unglazed windows to light his way. Sirius yelled as he ran until his throat was raw, throwing inarticulate rage at the darkness.

~ Chapter 15 ~
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
I started writing this last year, and got distracted. When I found it the other day, I got excited about it all over again (also terrified because I really want to get this shit right). Anyway, here's Ch. 3 of my trans!Remus story.

"Better now?" Pomfrey asked as his eyes blinked open.

He nodded.

"You've lost a lot of blood," she informed him. "You're very lucky that Potter and Pettigrew found you in time, and that Potter managed to keep his head."

"Blood?" He remembered blood. A lot of it. Smeared and dripping on the white tiles of the bathroom floor.

"You tried to kill yourself, Remus." His father's voice was strained. "Why?"

Trans*Figured, Ch. 3
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - MWPP - Conspiracy)
Thank you for your patience. I think I figured out part of what was giving me so much trouble: this chapter has a shit-ton of dialogue in it.

The feeling was hard to put into words. It was somewhere between a flutter and a tug, and he couldn't say whether it was in his belly or only in his mind.

The dormitory door opened behind him, and there it was again, just at the edge of his senses. Sirius smiled to himself, but didn't look up from his Transfiguration homework. He didn't have to.

"Hey, Moony."

Chapter 14: High-Strung
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
I am delighted to announce that Trans*Figured now has its own page on my website! Upon the advice of the incomparable [personal profile] themessrs, who has my undying gratitude, I have expanded Part II by ... er ... 3000 words. Meep! Looks like this is going to be another one of those stories that gets away from me. Enjoy!

Part I * Part II

(Also, don't forget that there is still time to vote in the [community profile] rs_games! The participants have worked hard and deserve all the love they can get!)
pica_scribit: (Gryffindor - RL/SB - Tender)
Title: Trans*Figured (2/5?)
Author: [personal profile] pica_scribit (complete fic archive)
Word Count: ~3800 and counting
Genre: AU, drama, angst, hurt/comfort, romance
Rating: T
Warnings: Trans* character written by cis author, references to Dark magic, attempted suicide
Characters: Remus Lupin, Sirius Black, James Potter, Peter Pettigrew, Severus Snape, Albus Dumbledore, Poppy Pomfrey, Mr & Mrs Lupin (OCs)
Pairing: Remus/Sirius
Summary: Remus has a secret: he's not a werewolf.
Disclaimer: Harry Potter characters and the Wizarding world are the sole property of J. K. Rowling. I own nothing except my own ideas, and make no profit. No copyright infringement is intended.
Note: I've been feeling recently that there is an under-representation of trans* characters in fanworks. Which is to say, I've never encountered one. This story is my attempt to improve trans* visibility in HP fanfic. I acknowledge that there are probably as many ways to be trans* as there are trans* people in the world, and I know that this story will probably not ring true with everyone's experiences, but hopefully I haven't made too much of a mess of things. I apologise in advance for any problematic elements that may have sneaked into the story in spite of my best intentions. I encourage everyone to check out Not Your Mom's Trans 101. It contains some great advice on being an effective and compassionate trans* ally.

Part I

Part II )

August 2017



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